This is a very bad idea. What you are about to do will never work out. It will end badly for everyone involved. Maybe if it wouldn’t effect so many people or if you wouldn’t have to sacrifice so much for it it would be okay.
I’m a planner. I like to know what comes next. Applying to college is stressing me out. There are so many different ways this could work out that its killing me. I just want to know now. It would make things so much easier to deal with. I wish I could go back in the past and make all the right decisions.